slow days

photo

My sister sent me this picture which I drew in primary school. I apologise that nothing has really come up over the past week and however long that I last posted… I have been steadily working on my exhibition stuff, so I have been producing a lot of mini zines both at work in the supermarket and when at home too. Lots of people have left the town as they’ve finished their degrees and have gone back to their hometowns. Fortunately there are still a handful of us left. Regardless of this I have been feeling lonely almost all the time as well as feeling unsatisfied with my work despite making significant progress.

Making art is supposed to be my passion so when I find myself feeling so restless while drawing I worry. I wonder if once I finish this masters degree the pressure will be removed and I will feel more relaxed. Maybe.

After this point in the post I actually wrote a super personal couple of paragraphs but then I realised it was actually making me feel worse so I’ve deleted those paragraphs. Instead I think I should make a list of short term, achievable goals that I can work towards to distract myself from the terror of the future.

  1. I want to make some cute trading cards and stickers to sell cheaply at my exhibition along with my zines. I like the idea of stuff being affordable for people, as well as having original drawings to sell.
  2. I want to make some fan-art of Adventure Time, various animes, Pokémon and other things to relax.
  3. I want to work more often in a communal space so that I don’t feel so lonely.

Over the next week I’ll try and work on these goals. Unfortunately I’m working nine hours (one hour of which is an unpaid break) on Thursday but apart from that I do not have any other plans during the week. I also hope I can sell some work to save up to maybe get some sort of mini games console because I’d really like to play Animal Crossing: New Leaf. Although I know this is just a phase I’m going through so we’ll see how I feel in a week!

a sketch from my work shift

Once more, thank you for reading.

postpost exhibition (summer begins)

Dear all,

so the exhibition has taken down. As I said, I did have a leisurely wander around to look more at the work, but I didn’t do the whole photo taking thing… luckily for those who are interested, there are loads of photos of students’ exhibition work on Vera’s blog, here and here. And again there’s some reviews and stuff on Siobhan’s blog too. Thanks for writing such kind and encouraging things about my work, Sivy!

Since my last post I’ve been doing extra hours at the supermarket and have also been feeling quite tired. I didn’t draw for a few days because I didn’t feel so inspired, but I have started drawing again and feel refreshed.

zines

While doing my extra hours at work, I attempted to be semi productive by drawing mini zines from a4  paper which I borrowed. I made one a day… I’m trying to make this a more regular thing as I think that it helps me to manage my mood swings during the shifts. Usually around late afternoon I start to feel bad – probably because it’s the middle of my shift and also I think it’s when I start to get hungry again. So drawing these helps me to stop thinking sad thoughts and focus on drawing, which probably means that I am less gloomy looking for customers. Below is one I did yesterday.

Today while I was at work, I forgot to pick up an a4 sheet of paper, so I found an old envelope under the till which I used to draw.

Now I won’t have work until a small 5 hour shift on Wednesday evening. For Monday and Tuesday, I’m not sure how to occupy myself. Since many people from my course have left university and I don’t have specific lessons to attend, I feel a bit lost. Fortunately there are still some of us left in this town so hopefully I won’t feel lonely. The next thing to do on my list is probably working out what I will do for the September exhibition. As you may know already, I don’t really enjoy planning art projects; I just like to do them and see what happens… but I suppose I will need at least a little bit of a plan, so I don’t drift off into obscurity. At the moment I am looking at the work of Cy Twombly and also rediscovering Jean Michel Basquiat…

I always feel awkward with words when talking about other artists, but I feel like in a way my recent exhibition piece was in a similar vein to Basquiat’s work (probably just because it contained really colloquial text scrawled as part of the image)…

I was about to say “I’m not sure how to end this blog post, so…” but I just remembered to write that at the end of last week I put loads of old work out on a table in the school of art and tried to sell some of it… I expected to make only £5 but made £101.50! So that makes me feel a bit positive about the future, even though it’s not really going to be a regular, consistent business.

photo of shop

Here’s a photo of my work in my shop! It was simple, not flashy at all, just little paper placards denoting the price. I liked having the shop. Artist Claes Oldenburg made his own ‘shop’ in 1961 Manhattan, which was a piece of art in itself… and it’s something I really would like to do. Creating a DIY style artists’ shop – possibly in a collective. Anyway, now I’m probably rambling a little. I’m going to end this now and read some blogs which I’ve not had a chance to read for a while!

Thank you for reading,

Elysia

PS: I forgot to make my to do list here.

  1. work on my Ladyquest zine submission, deadline late July.
  2. enter the Sheffield International Artist’s Book Prize (wow, long name), deadline July 31st.
  3. enter the Rabley Drawing Centre’s sketchbook exhibition, deadline June 21st.
  4. maybe enter Jerwood Drawing Prize, deadline 17th June.
  5. Make work to sell in the CCS charity shop (a local thing).
  6. Make a print to enter Hong Kong exhibition, deadline 10th June.
  7. Apply for CAC residency.